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Foolish In The Past Tense
I knew it foolish in the moment and especially in the moments soon after. What I didn’t know was that there would be nowhere to run. Never compare a beauty to something inescapable. Yes, the sky is vast and dark and it sometimes gifts me with heavy cloud cover. And yes, the stars that fill…
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Sickening Behavior
It’s mental. Illness begins the moment you become aware of the ability. And let this be the moment where we confirm that it is, more than anything else, an ability. You can make people happy. You can make people smile and you can make people laugh. You can make people feel seen because you can…
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sigh and sigh and sigh again.
I don’t want to cry. No, this time I really don’t. I’d rather dissect. Specifically the why. It is so stupid, truly, to care about people. They let you down when you need them and then others arrive with open arms and they’re not the ones you want. It’s not their fault for letting you down…
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but never to grow
It is a shame. A shame that I cannot yell and shout and lament a person, place or thing. It is a shame to be sad and angry with nothing to blame, forced to seek a lonely peace. The kind where a deep sigh replaces rage as I step down and away and then stifle…
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Symptomatic
I find myself grieving a feeling that I didn’t think myself at risk of losing. Now, it may not yet be lost just yet. I could perhaps still reach out for it. Do I want to, though? If it is worth reaching out for, then surely it would have been worth holding onto. Funny, this…
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first admission
At times, she owns the air. She owns his clothes. She owns his tongue and she owns his urges. He has had little say in this new ownership beyond that first admittance to his wants. And it is not so bad, he thinks, for her to own what she does. Not right now at least.…